It all makes sense…I’m a jerk.


IMG_3515Alright, I’m not ALWAYS a jerk, but honestly. I’ve been a jerk.  Here and there…sometimes just a little, sometimes pedal to the metal ram you into the sidewall jerkiness.  I’ve been searching for my “center” (I feel all namaste when I say that).  But really, between heading to church on Sundays, spending more time with my family & close friends, and starting to get my life organized, I’m getting small tastes of this thing they call happiness.  You know good ol’ make you smile and even call your mother happiness.

It’s a funny thing this happiness, it makes you want to be better.  So I’ve been reading a bit more.  My most recent book of choice is, The Five Dysfunctions of a Team: A Leadership Fable by Patrick Lencioni.  Wholly Crap.  Everything is starting to make sense.  Not only am I recognizing my dysfunctions that may be causing the team to falter, but I’m seeing the dysfunctions in others.  I finally feel like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel when it comes to areas of my career. This is exuberating.  Like go and eat unlimited Chips & Queso with a gallon of Diet Coke even if it means I’m bloated for 6 days and have to wear my stretchy shoes exuberating!

Don’t get me wrong, I’m still a jerk at times, but who isn’t!  Have you driven anywhere lately?  I’m just saying that taking the time to start to really invest in myself has really opened up a new perspective for me.  This is a big step considering I haven’t watched anything on TV above a G rating in almost a week and a half and my form of cardio today was maneuvering through a minefield of Legos and Thomas the Train for the 15th time trying to get Timothy to stay in bed.

He’s finally asleep, my husband is watching Netflix on the iPad and I’m ready to crash out,  Suburban Bliss at it’s finest.



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